Maj. Dr. R., the first female medical officer in the IDF Commando Brigade, has played a pivotal role on the front lines of both Gaza and Lebanon during twenty months of conflict. Her experiences include treating wounded soldiers under fire, narrowly surviving a drone strike, and coordinating evacuations during some of the war's most challenging moments. Dr. R. has also faced the emotional burden of identifying fallen comrades and supporting soldiers whose lives she helped save. She now reflects on the difficulties of self-care amid the relentless demands of combat medicine.